Hello
It is the end of a very long and very busy day! We are getting ready for a festival which we are going to tomorrow, we have been setting up our camp today in strong winds and generally racing around trying to get every thing finished in time.......
This is just a little post as I have decided to be kind to myself over the summer and not make myself write posts when it would be a difficult job to get it done. Today is one of those days, where getting it done to my usual standard would mean unnecessary stress for me!
So my lesson for today was simple: when things are not going so smoothly, when it looks like I will be late I just say to my self " it will be as it is" and I stop worrying! Actually this worked extremely well for me today, it really helped to reduce my stress levels, after all everything usually works out well in the end, and life in itself is perfect.
Learning not to worry is of course part and parcel of choosing good feeling thoughts, so off I go now into the new horizon full of the intention of making peace with everything and the knowing that it will all work out well in the end.
Today I have Loving Gratitude for mice and their little noses
I have Loving Gratitude for my yurt
I have Loving Gratitude for the fields waiting for the festival
I have Loving Gratitude for the trees which watch the festival and the world as it passes them by
I have Loving Gratitude for moments when sunlight catches random things made of metal and sends light reflecting around rooms
I have Loving Gratitude for the Great Mystery of Life
I have Loving Gratitude for all the good yet to come
I have Loving Gratitude for colour
I have Loving Gratitude for sound
I have Loving Gratitude for the world
love Klara.
Friday, 15 June 2012
Thursday, 14 June 2012
Beautiful Aspirations
Hello
I wrote a week or two ago about Making Peace with exactly where I am in my life right now. Making Peace with myself and the continuous stream of interactions which I have every day is now never far from my mind!
Of course, like everything else in my life, it is a work in progress, and I guess today I just feel to write about it again! It is where I am at right now! My baby is crying, make peace. My house is a mess, make peace. I am late for an appointment, make peace. I didn't get enough sleep again last night, make peace. I would like more friends, make peace. Perhaps you get the idea!
Life contains seemingly endless opportunities to practice making peace! Perhaps after practicing it for long enough it will become automatic? And as I am often hearing maybe there will be fewer and fewer occasions to need to make peace with?
What I like the most about the process of making peace with whatever comes my way is that once I have made peace with whatever it is I need waste no more thought on whatever it was, which means that I am able move on much more quickly than I may have done in the past. Additionally I find that when I am interacting with another being if I am able to make peace quickly it is much easier for me to act with compassion and so avoid further upset, and I find that I am much happier with the outcome and my place in it.
I really think that the best way to find and spread Peace in the World is to become what we want to experience. Making peace with myself and all my encounters will help me to become a peaceful person, when I become a peaceful person I will spread peace throughout the world just by my very presence. What a wonderfully beautiful thing to aspire to.........
Today I have peace in my heart and I am thankful for all the people who have showed me the way
I have peace in my heart and I am thankful for the opportunity to change
I have peace in my heart and I am thankful for the opportunity to grow
I have peace in my heart and I am thankful for joy
I have peace in my heart and I am thankful for love
I have peace in my heart and I am thankful for the sun
I have peace in my heart and I am thankful for the moon
I have peace in my heart and I am thankful for my family
I have peace in my heart and I am thankful for all the friends I have met
I have peace in my heart and I am thankful for all the friends I have not yet met
love Klara.
I wrote a week or two ago about Making Peace with exactly where I am in my life right now. Making Peace with myself and the continuous stream of interactions which I have every day is now never far from my mind!
Of course, like everything else in my life, it is a work in progress, and I guess today I just feel to write about it again! It is where I am at right now! My baby is crying, make peace. My house is a mess, make peace. I am late for an appointment, make peace. I didn't get enough sleep again last night, make peace. I would like more friends, make peace. Perhaps you get the idea!
Life contains seemingly endless opportunities to practice making peace! Perhaps after practicing it for long enough it will become automatic? And as I am often hearing maybe there will be fewer and fewer occasions to need to make peace with?
What I like the most about the process of making peace with whatever comes my way is that once I have made peace with whatever it is I need waste no more thought on whatever it was, which means that I am able move on much more quickly than I may have done in the past. Additionally I find that when I am interacting with another being if I am able to make peace quickly it is much easier for me to act with compassion and so avoid further upset, and I find that I am much happier with the outcome and my place in it.
I really think that the best way to find and spread Peace in the World is to become what we want to experience. Making peace with myself and all my encounters will help me to become a peaceful person, when I become a peaceful person I will spread peace throughout the world just by my very presence. What a wonderfully beautiful thing to aspire to.........
Today I have peace in my heart and I am thankful for all the people who have showed me the way
I have peace in my heart and I am thankful for the opportunity to change
I have peace in my heart and I am thankful for the opportunity to grow
I have peace in my heart and I am thankful for joy
I have peace in my heart and I am thankful for love
I have peace in my heart and I am thankful for the sun
I have peace in my heart and I am thankful for the moon
I have peace in my heart and I am thankful for my family
I have peace in my heart and I am thankful for all the friends I have met
I have peace in my heart and I am thankful for all the friends I have not yet met
love Klara.
Wednesday, 13 June 2012
Give Yourself A Pat On The Back!
Hello
Today I sang a lot! I drove into town singing and then I left my van and walked home through the fields singing all the way. It was a beautiful walk, made all the more beautiful by the fact that I was singing. I was not just singing for pleasure, I was also practicing and learning words to a song which I will perform a few times over the next couple of weeks; it is a song which I wrote about ten years ago, but I have always felt it was unfinished until today! As I walked along I wrote a chorus for it and now I really feel that it is a whole song. Good.
I sang for a while after I got home, and then I began to think about how great I was feeling. During my singing I had to concentrate very hard, when I practice I sometimes go over the same part of the song several times, I often need to iron out trouble spots where I go flat or hit the wrong note. I was completely absorbed in what I was doing, I forgot about the rest of the world and everything else I have to do, it was blissful. I felt complete happiness.
Being the parent of a small baby I find it easy to forget what it is like to be absorbed in an activity which engages my entire brain! The majority of my time I need to attend to my baby's needs, or I am doing house work, which means that there is plenty of time for me to contemplate the nature of the Universe or my own personal dramas!
I do my absolute best to either be completely present with whatever the task is at hand or if it is more a matter of observing my baby and facilitating her then I try my best to simply be in the Now, which is perhaps the same thing.
The phrase "the devil makes work for idle hands" came into my mind today. I had been completely absorbed in a task, working hard to make a good job of my singing, and when I stopped a whole queue of negative thoughts came trooping in! I think that phrase would be more apt for me if it said "the devil makes work for idle minds" !
I don't think there is a moment in my day where I am idle, but the nature of mothering a small baby means that my mind is often only partially occupied, and therefore could be described as idle! To me the devil is simply a word meaning disruption, craziness or negativity, and they are the aspects of thought which I am on guard for!
So today I am giving myself a pat on the back for doing so well at avoiding the crazy thoughts which can come so easily to people who are not fully occupied. I'm sure that every one is different , perhaps some people thrive from idleness, but I am not one of them.
My work here is about being kind to myself, opening my heart to love myself as much as anyone can love.....
Knowing myself and never underestimating the path down which I walk is a very important part of learning to choose good feeling thoughts, it can be all too easy to fail to notice what a tough job we do in life, failing to notice what a triumph we are making at being ourselves.
I am doing a great job of being me! Learning to still the mind and think positively is an act of self mastery. I wholly give myself permission to take my time learning all that I need to know to be at peace in my life.
Today I have Loving Gratitude for the old idioms which highlight the Universal truths about life
I have Loving Gratitude for sweetness
I have Loving Gratitude for salt
I have Loving Gratitude for spices
I have Loving Gratitude for vinegar
I have Loving Gratitude for sea water
I have Loving Gratitude for sand
I have Loving Gratitude for buckets and spades on the beach
I have Loving Gratitude for the phenomenon of talking online to someone I have never met before in another country
I have Loving Gratitude for the sun
love Klara.
Today I sang a lot! I drove into town singing and then I left my van and walked home through the fields singing all the way. It was a beautiful walk, made all the more beautiful by the fact that I was singing. I was not just singing for pleasure, I was also practicing and learning words to a song which I will perform a few times over the next couple of weeks; it is a song which I wrote about ten years ago, but I have always felt it was unfinished until today! As I walked along I wrote a chorus for it and now I really feel that it is a whole song. Good.
I sang for a while after I got home, and then I began to think about how great I was feeling. During my singing I had to concentrate very hard, when I practice I sometimes go over the same part of the song several times, I often need to iron out trouble spots where I go flat or hit the wrong note. I was completely absorbed in what I was doing, I forgot about the rest of the world and everything else I have to do, it was blissful. I felt complete happiness.
Being the parent of a small baby I find it easy to forget what it is like to be absorbed in an activity which engages my entire brain! The majority of my time I need to attend to my baby's needs, or I am doing house work, which means that there is plenty of time for me to contemplate the nature of the Universe or my own personal dramas!
I do my absolute best to either be completely present with whatever the task is at hand or if it is more a matter of observing my baby and facilitating her then I try my best to simply be in the Now, which is perhaps the same thing.
The phrase "the devil makes work for idle hands" came into my mind today. I had been completely absorbed in a task, working hard to make a good job of my singing, and when I stopped a whole queue of negative thoughts came trooping in! I think that phrase would be more apt for me if it said "the devil makes work for idle minds" !
I don't think there is a moment in my day where I am idle, but the nature of mothering a small baby means that my mind is often only partially occupied, and therefore could be described as idle! To me the devil is simply a word meaning disruption, craziness or negativity, and they are the aspects of thought which I am on guard for!
So today I am giving myself a pat on the back for doing so well at avoiding the crazy thoughts which can come so easily to people who are not fully occupied. I'm sure that every one is different , perhaps some people thrive from idleness, but I am not one of them.
My work here is about being kind to myself, opening my heart to love myself as much as anyone can love.....
Knowing myself and never underestimating the path down which I walk is a very important part of learning to choose good feeling thoughts, it can be all too easy to fail to notice what a tough job we do in life, failing to notice what a triumph we are making at being ourselves.
I am doing a great job of being me! Learning to still the mind and think positively is an act of self mastery. I wholly give myself permission to take my time learning all that I need to know to be at peace in my life.
Today I have Loving Gratitude for the old idioms which highlight the Universal truths about life
I have Loving Gratitude for sweetness
I have Loving Gratitude for salt
I have Loving Gratitude for spices
I have Loving Gratitude for vinegar
I have Loving Gratitude for sea water
I have Loving Gratitude for sand
I have Loving Gratitude for buckets and spades on the beach
I have Loving Gratitude for the phenomenon of talking online to someone I have never met before in another country
I have Loving Gratitude for the sun
love Klara.
Tuesday, 12 June 2012
Yin and Yang.......
Hello
I just looked out of the window and to my surprise the sun is shining merrily away and at the same time the sky is very dark grey as if waiting to drench the earth again! It is a very beautiful sight and an inspiring one too! For me it feels like a reflection of how one can feel so many conflicting emotions at any one time, which makes me wonder whether they are conflicting at all?
The sun is shining but it looks like rain; really sun and rain do go very well together and when they do the most beautiful thing of all happens: a rainbow !
And double wow, the word rainbow has seven letters just like the rainbow has seven colours!
So what? So perhaps conflicting emotions are a sign that something beautiful is about to happen!
The sky is clearing now and the grey has become a rather beautiful shade of purpley-orange it reminds me of how I imagine the colour octarine to be (Terry Pratchets' imagined colour). A kind of orangey purpley sparkly violet!
Actually right now I keep noticing things which are neither one thing nor are they another. It seems like a lesson. I am reminded of the YinYang a symbol which my understanding of it is that there is a duality in life but it is an eternal dance where there is always a blend of one with the other, and without this blend and this duality there can be no balance. Yang without Yin is incomplete and one-sided and of course vice versa.
That seems to be the way with so many things in life, why should thoughts be any different? When there are too many negative thoughts it should be no great surprise that the accompanying feelings are miserable and eventually all consuming. But I am not so sure that that would be the case if the predominant thoughts were all good feeling positive thoughts?
When I think good feeling thoughts, when I concentrate on that which I am grateful for I feel wonderful and I also feel balanced. I don't know everything and of course I am just speculating on how the world is.......
I have met people in the past who think that we must have bad in order to appreciate the good other wise we would become complacent. Personally I think that is total nonsense! For me it it more that bad experiences help me to hone my preferences for what I would really like to experience.
Additionally I have experienced those who believe that what goes up must come down, that every high is followed by a low, and indeed I have encountered such experiences but I am certain that it is more like a pendulum which we can bring into balance by learning how to choose our thoughts, therefore reducing the swing of the pendulum......
Life is supposed to be fun, we are here having a human experience to grow and to experience joy and wonderment. We are not supposed to suffer, I don't believe that suffering is necessary........
I believe that our happiness is within our control, we can choose to focus on that which brings us joy, or we can focus on that which does not.......
I know what I will be choosing!
Today I have Loving Gratitude for the beautiful things I found today in the charity shop
I have Loving Gratitude for my children's artwork
I have Loving Gratitude for tickling
I have Loving Gratitude for cuddles
I have Loving Gratitude for kisses
I have Loving Gratitude for singing
I have Loving Gratitude for music
I have Loving Gratitude for the sunshine
I have Loving Gratitude for the rain
I have Loving Gratitude for all the contrast which helps me to find balance
love Klara.
I just looked out of the window and to my surprise the sun is shining merrily away and at the same time the sky is very dark grey as if waiting to drench the earth again! It is a very beautiful sight and an inspiring one too! For me it feels like a reflection of how one can feel so many conflicting emotions at any one time, which makes me wonder whether they are conflicting at all?
The sun is shining but it looks like rain; really sun and rain do go very well together and when they do the most beautiful thing of all happens: a rainbow !
And double wow, the word rainbow has seven letters just like the rainbow has seven colours!
So what? So perhaps conflicting emotions are a sign that something beautiful is about to happen!
The sky is clearing now and the grey has become a rather beautiful shade of purpley-orange it reminds me of how I imagine the colour octarine to be (Terry Pratchets' imagined colour). A kind of orangey purpley sparkly violet!
Actually right now I keep noticing things which are neither one thing nor are they another. It seems like a lesson. I am reminded of the YinYang a symbol which my understanding of it is that there is a duality in life but it is an eternal dance where there is always a blend of one with the other, and without this blend and this duality there can be no balance. Yang without Yin is incomplete and one-sided and of course vice versa.
That seems to be the way with so many things in life, why should thoughts be any different? When there are too many negative thoughts it should be no great surprise that the accompanying feelings are miserable and eventually all consuming. But I am not so sure that that would be the case if the predominant thoughts were all good feeling positive thoughts?
When I think good feeling thoughts, when I concentrate on that which I am grateful for I feel wonderful and I also feel balanced. I don't know everything and of course I am just speculating on how the world is.......
I have met people in the past who think that we must have bad in order to appreciate the good other wise we would become complacent. Personally I think that is total nonsense! For me it it more that bad experiences help me to hone my preferences for what I would really like to experience.
Additionally I have experienced those who believe that what goes up must come down, that every high is followed by a low, and indeed I have encountered such experiences but I am certain that it is more like a pendulum which we can bring into balance by learning how to choose our thoughts, therefore reducing the swing of the pendulum......
Life is supposed to be fun, we are here having a human experience to grow and to experience joy and wonderment. We are not supposed to suffer, I don't believe that suffering is necessary........
I believe that our happiness is within our control, we can choose to focus on that which brings us joy, or we can focus on that which does not.......
I know what I will be choosing!
Today I have Loving Gratitude for the beautiful things I found today in the charity shop
I have Loving Gratitude for my children's artwork
I have Loving Gratitude for tickling
I have Loving Gratitude for cuddles
I have Loving Gratitude for kisses
I have Loving Gratitude for singing
I have Loving Gratitude for music
I have Loving Gratitude for the sunshine
I have Loving Gratitude for the rain
I have Loving Gratitude for all the contrast which helps me to find balance
love Klara.
Monday, 11 June 2012
Ten Things I love About Myself.....
Hello
Today I feel the need to remind myself about being kind to myself! I started this blog partly as a way of getting through the winter, which has always been a troublesome time for me, and partly as a way of sharing my new found joy in life. Now it is summer, although you would be forgiven for not believing that if you are in England as it has done nothing but rain for a very long time now!
Ah yes, so now it is summer, our busiest time of the year! We tend to spend much of our summer camped out at festivals across the UK, far from computers and electricity, blissed out whatever the weather soaking up the gloriousness of living outdoors.
Being outdoors is the single most important thing to me in the whole world! OK that was a slight exaggeration, however you get the idea. Quite often when I am in a bad mood all I need to do is go outside to relieve the feelings, and my partner frequently says "it's the house! you were fine until we came into the house."
So where am I going with this? Ah yes being kind! I have to laugh at myself as I have been spending an extraordinary amount of time trying to work out how I will write my blog everyday when I am away from home, I have actually been rather stressed about it. How ridiculous is that? Very.
The whole point of writing my blog is a stress relief, so in the name of giving myself a break I have decided to write my blog when I am at home! The Pure Genius of this idea astounds me! I have also decided that as writing my blog serves me so well when I am struggling with my day to day life, that if I am away from home and I need to write, I shall do it the old fashioned way with pen and paper! How quaint! And perhaps I will find some way of sharing it here when I return home. This means that for a while my blog will not magically appear every day!
So I have found that the being kind to myself aspect is rather lacking at the moment and I need reminding what it really means.
At the moment I have been experiencing outbursts of the inner critic; the inner critic is the voice which tells me I am a failure, I am too messy, too disorganised or whatever hook it can find it will go with. I suppose I had taken down my guard and I was feeling so supremely positive that I forgot that the inner critic could still be there working against my positivity.
So what should I do when that small sardonic voice starts telling me I am doing a bad job? Firstly I should ignore the things it would have me believe, and the second thing which I find useful is to shine a bright light like that from a lighthouse on all that I do which I am proud of. Highlighting my own strong points and talents is a very valuable activity for me.
Each time the critic rears its ugly head I would like to say ten things I love about myself.......
I love my wonderfully vivid imagination
I love my own cooking
I love how beautifully I can organise a room
I love my sense of style
I love the sound of my voice when I sing
I love my ability to write songs
I love the stories I have written
I love the way I can make other people laugh
I love how affectionate I am
I love my ability to listen to other people
Wow that actually felt really good! I don't think I have ever written down ten things I love about being me! If you are reading this now I would highly recommend that you try this right now!
Being kind to myself means accepting my self exactly the way I am right now, expecting no more of myself than I am capable of, and by that I mean that in my heart I know that I always do my best! My best will be different from day to day, I believe that human beings are different from day to day, there are so many factors which affect our equilibrium and our orientation each day, so what was my best yesterday is very likely to be different to what my best will be today. I am by no means excusing myself for poor behaviour, more that I am aware that planet Earth is a complicated place, we are energetic beings and as such must be subject to the energetic forces of our Universe.
So there it is, I shall continue to do my best to turn up here every day and tell the world about my life! How grand! And when I don't turn up it is because I am having a good time in a field somewhere playing music and thinking up new ways of making myself happy.......
Today I am Thankful for my exercise of thinking up what I love about being me
Today I am Thankful for swimming pools
Today I am Thankful for love
Today I am Thankful for exciting visits from old friends
Today I am Thankful for laughter
Today I am Thankful for my beautiful children
Today I am Thankful for all the beautiful children filling the world with laughter
Today I am Thankful for bees
Today I am Thankful for trees
Today I am Thankful for ancient giant redwoods
love Klara.
Today I feel the need to remind myself about being kind to myself! I started this blog partly as a way of getting through the winter, which has always been a troublesome time for me, and partly as a way of sharing my new found joy in life. Now it is summer, although you would be forgiven for not believing that if you are in England as it has done nothing but rain for a very long time now!
Ah yes, so now it is summer, our busiest time of the year! We tend to spend much of our summer camped out at festivals across the UK, far from computers and electricity, blissed out whatever the weather soaking up the gloriousness of living outdoors.
Being outdoors is the single most important thing to me in the whole world! OK that was a slight exaggeration, however you get the idea. Quite often when I am in a bad mood all I need to do is go outside to relieve the feelings, and my partner frequently says "it's the house! you were fine until we came into the house."
So where am I going with this? Ah yes being kind! I have to laugh at myself as I have been spending an extraordinary amount of time trying to work out how I will write my blog everyday when I am away from home, I have actually been rather stressed about it. How ridiculous is that? Very.
The whole point of writing my blog is a stress relief, so in the name of giving myself a break I have decided to write my blog when I am at home! The Pure Genius of this idea astounds me! I have also decided that as writing my blog serves me so well when I am struggling with my day to day life, that if I am away from home and I need to write, I shall do it the old fashioned way with pen and paper! How quaint! And perhaps I will find some way of sharing it here when I return home. This means that for a while my blog will not magically appear every day!
So I have found that the being kind to myself aspect is rather lacking at the moment and I need reminding what it really means.
At the moment I have been experiencing outbursts of the inner critic; the inner critic is the voice which tells me I am a failure, I am too messy, too disorganised or whatever hook it can find it will go with. I suppose I had taken down my guard and I was feeling so supremely positive that I forgot that the inner critic could still be there working against my positivity.
So what should I do when that small sardonic voice starts telling me I am doing a bad job? Firstly I should ignore the things it would have me believe, and the second thing which I find useful is to shine a bright light like that from a lighthouse on all that I do which I am proud of. Highlighting my own strong points and talents is a very valuable activity for me.
Each time the critic rears its ugly head I would like to say ten things I love about myself.......
I love my wonderfully vivid imagination
I love my own cooking
I love how beautifully I can organise a room
I love my sense of style
I love the sound of my voice when I sing
I love my ability to write songs
I love the stories I have written
I love the way I can make other people laugh
I love how affectionate I am
I love my ability to listen to other people
Wow that actually felt really good! I don't think I have ever written down ten things I love about being me! If you are reading this now I would highly recommend that you try this right now!
Being kind to myself means accepting my self exactly the way I am right now, expecting no more of myself than I am capable of, and by that I mean that in my heart I know that I always do my best! My best will be different from day to day, I believe that human beings are different from day to day, there are so many factors which affect our equilibrium and our orientation each day, so what was my best yesterday is very likely to be different to what my best will be today. I am by no means excusing myself for poor behaviour, more that I am aware that planet Earth is a complicated place, we are energetic beings and as such must be subject to the energetic forces of our Universe.
So there it is, I shall continue to do my best to turn up here every day and tell the world about my life! How grand! And when I don't turn up it is because I am having a good time in a field somewhere playing music and thinking up new ways of making myself happy.......
Today I am Thankful for my exercise of thinking up what I love about being me
Today I am Thankful for swimming pools
Today I am Thankful for love
Today I am Thankful for exciting visits from old friends
Today I am Thankful for laughter
Today I am Thankful for my beautiful children
Today I am Thankful for all the beautiful children filling the world with laughter
Today I am Thankful for bees
Today I am Thankful for trees
Today I am Thankful for ancient giant redwoods
love Klara.
Sunday, 10 June 2012
Waiting for an Avalanche of Positivity.
Hello
I'm having a quiet day, it is raining again and I am considering becoming an aquatic creature like a mermaid or a frog, just until the rain stops, either that or I might just start building an ark and collecting together two of everything......
We have all been stuck inside for days on end, it's not that I don't like rain, because actually I do but I have totally inadequate clothing to deal with the wetness that occurs when I spend time out in it!
I was feeling quite rubbish for most of today, I ate food which disagreed with me yesterday, I slept late this morning and by seven thirty this evening I still had not done the three things I love to do each day: sing and play a song, go for a walk, and write my blog!
My mood was plummeting and I was about to give in totally and just go to bed, which was what I thought my baby needed, but somewhere from within me came the small voice which told me not to give up or give in, I had made a commitment to myself: I had made a commitment to do the things for which I have great passion!
So I got back up, went downstairs and played a song, which of course brought me quite far back into myself. Then hooray and pretty much hey presto: my baby fell asleep, so I set off on my walk.
It was an evening walk in the rain, not heavy relentless rain but that soft kind of rain that gets you really wet without you realising it's happening! It was a strange walk as I did not pass one single human being in forty five minutes which is odd because I live in a town and although I went into the fields I did not go far from the town.
The birds were singing their evening song and I was struck by just how much everything has grown over the last week! All the pathways are becoming overgrown, the plants heavy with lush verdant growth, I particularly love the smell of rain soaked vegetation.
So now here I am writing my blog. I feel enormously grateful for the small voice which made me get up and do the things I love. I was feeling very sorry for myself, I don't know what inspired such a despondent mood but it was beginning to consume me. Thoughts reproduce in their own likeness and in my experience it does not take many to start an avalanche of negativity.........
Hooray! I am feeling much more positive than I was earlier! and hooray for the fact that thoughts do reproduce in their own likeness because of course that works in my favour too; I am looking upwards with bated breath waiting for the avalanche of positivity.....
Today I Give Thanks for the sweet rain
I Give Thanks for my commitment to do what I love every day
I Give Thanks for ancient trees in the town
I Give Thanks for the rampant overgrowth fed by all this rain
I Give Thanks for the proliferation of rainbows fed by the rain
I Give Thanks for my lovely white guitar
I Give Thanks for my rich voice
I Give Thanks for my legs which carry me near and far
I Give Thanks for bedtime
I Give Thanks for the morning to come full of possibility
love Klara.
I'm having a quiet day, it is raining again and I am considering becoming an aquatic creature like a mermaid or a frog, just until the rain stops, either that or I might just start building an ark and collecting together two of everything......
We have all been stuck inside for days on end, it's not that I don't like rain, because actually I do but I have totally inadequate clothing to deal with the wetness that occurs when I spend time out in it!
I was feeling quite rubbish for most of today, I ate food which disagreed with me yesterday, I slept late this morning and by seven thirty this evening I still had not done the three things I love to do each day: sing and play a song, go for a walk, and write my blog!
My mood was plummeting and I was about to give in totally and just go to bed, which was what I thought my baby needed, but somewhere from within me came the small voice which told me not to give up or give in, I had made a commitment to myself: I had made a commitment to do the things for which I have great passion!
So I got back up, went downstairs and played a song, which of course brought me quite far back into myself. Then hooray and pretty much hey presto: my baby fell asleep, so I set off on my walk.
It was an evening walk in the rain, not heavy relentless rain but that soft kind of rain that gets you really wet without you realising it's happening! It was a strange walk as I did not pass one single human being in forty five minutes which is odd because I live in a town and although I went into the fields I did not go far from the town.
The birds were singing their evening song and I was struck by just how much everything has grown over the last week! All the pathways are becoming overgrown, the plants heavy with lush verdant growth, I particularly love the smell of rain soaked vegetation.
So now here I am writing my blog. I feel enormously grateful for the small voice which made me get up and do the things I love. I was feeling very sorry for myself, I don't know what inspired such a despondent mood but it was beginning to consume me. Thoughts reproduce in their own likeness and in my experience it does not take many to start an avalanche of negativity.........
Hooray! I am feeling much more positive than I was earlier! and hooray for the fact that thoughts do reproduce in their own likeness because of course that works in my favour too; I am looking upwards with bated breath waiting for the avalanche of positivity.....
Today I Give Thanks for the sweet rain
I Give Thanks for my commitment to do what I love every day
I Give Thanks for ancient trees in the town
I Give Thanks for the rampant overgrowth fed by all this rain
I Give Thanks for the proliferation of rainbows fed by the rain
I Give Thanks for my lovely white guitar
I Give Thanks for my rich voice
I Give Thanks for my legs which carry me near and far
I Give Thanks for bedtime
I Give Thanks for the morning to come full of possibility
love Klara.
Saturday, 9 June 2012
Throwing anger to the wind.......
Hello
For a while now I have been harbouring anger around an old hurt! I was going to laugh at my choice of words then: harbouring, but then I realised that as an analogy harbouring is excellent. I went out for a walk today and began to think about the anger that I feel and what I can do to shift it; I thought about what anger is in general and where it resides about my being. Every time I visualised it it fell somewhere around the left side of my body, it is not inside me, it is more around me waiting patiently for opportunities to be activated and cause havoc!
Everywhere I go the anger goes along side me, perhaps I pull it like an old fashioned horse drawn coal barge, darkly it follows me not doing anything in particular apart from being there. Most of the time I pay it no attention but from time to time things happen which activate it, and then there it is rearing its ugly head disturbing my equilibrium.
So here I am on my mission to choose good feeling thoughts doing my best to make Peace with the world exactly as I find it and somehow I need to find a way to make peace with the anger which I am harbouring.
My anger surrounds another person, as I am sure anger so often does, but it does not affect them as far as I know. It belongs to me! It is a mixture of hurt, a faint desire for revenge, a feeling of unjustness and a strong desire to be free of it. Some parts of me would like to bundle it up and fling it at the other person, but I know in my heart that the best thing I could do with it were it something solid and flingable would be to throw it to the wind to dissipate.
Strong negative emotions are a burden and by themselves they do not achieve anything, when I think of the Image of Peace I know that harbouring a body of anger can only hurt me. I like to imagine that if my body had a colourful aura the anger would appear as a bright red bulge on my left side. I feel anger towards someone else, but I and I alone am the one who suffers. The anger is mine, I own it.
I know how to make peace with small disappointments and annoyances, in fact I find it very easy to do so, but making peace with such a large thing, a thing which seems to have taken on its own characteristics is a big challenge for me.
Firstly I own the anger, I forgive myself entirely for allowing it to grow to such proportions without dealing with it, I made a mistake, I am a human being and mistakes can be beautiful. As a human I have no instruction manual to tell me how to deal with intense emotions so how could I expect myself to do any better until I have learnt through experience how these things work? Who knows what great blessings could come from my anger once it has flowered into a beautiful blossom?
Secondly I trust that my urge to find a way to make peace with the anger I hold will bring exactly the solution that I need straight to me.
Finally I do not let this problem or any others which I encounter take up too much of my time! When the time is right the solution will come and for the rest of the time I shall focus on that which fills my heart with gladness! I have spent enough of my life allowing problems to take up too much of my time, before I was able to choose my thoughts difficulties would consume my attention like hungry wolves and I was frequently miserable turning them over and over again in my mind to no avail. Now I know that there is a time and a place for dealing with problems, they need not mar my everyday life or stem the beauty of my world.
Today I am Thankful for all the opportunities I have to grow
I am Thankful for the beauty which is to come when I have healed my anger
I am Thankful for walking in the fields bare foot
I am Thankful for the feel of mud between my toes
I am Thankful for invitations to sit by a fire in a cave
I am Thankful for new horizons
I am Thankful for sunbeams through water
I am Thankful for the sound of laughter coming from peoples houses as I walk past
I am Thankful for passion
I am Thankful for love
love Klara.
For a while now I have been harbouring anger around an old hurt! I was going to laugh at my choice of words then: harbouring, but then I realised that as an analogy harbouring is excellent. I went out for a walk today and began to think about the anger that I feel and what I can do to shift it; I thought about what anger is in general and where it resides about my being. Every time I visualised it it fell somewhere around the left side of my body, it is not inside me, it is more around me waiting patiently for opportunities to be activated and cause havoc!
Everywhere I go the anger goes along side me, perhaps I pull it like an old fashioned horse drawn coal barge, darkly it follows me not doing anything in particular apart from being there. Most of the time I pay it no attention but from time to time things happen which activate it, and then there it is rearing its ugly head disturbing my equilibrium.
So here I am on my mission to choose good feeling thoughts doing my best to make Peace with the world exactly as I find it and somehow I need to find a way to make peace with the anger which I am harbouring.
My anger surrounds another person, as I am sure anger so often does, but it does not affect them as far as I know. It belongs to me! It is a mixture of hurt, a faint desire for revenge, a feeling of unjustness and a strong desire to be free of it. Some parts of me would like to bundle it up and fling it at the other person, but I know in my heart that the best thing I could do with it were it something solid and flingable would be to throw it to the wind to dissipate.
Strong negative emotions are a burden and by themselves they do not achieve anything, when I think of the Image of Peace I know that harbouring a body of anger can only hurt me. I like to imagine that if my body had a colourful aura the anger would appear as a bright red bulge on my left side. I feel anger towards someone else, but I and I alone am the one who suffers. The anger is mine, I own it.
I know how to make peace with small disappointments and annoyances, in fact I find it very easy to do so, but making peace with such a large thing, a thing which seems to have taken on its own characteristics is a big challenge for me.
Firstly I own the anger, I forgive myself entirely for allowing it to grow to such proportions without dealing with it, I made a mistake, I am a human being and mistakes can be beautiful. As a human I have no instruction manual to tell me how to deal with intense emotions so how could I expect myself to do any better until I have learnt through experience how these things work? Who knows what great blessings could come from my anger once it has flowered into a beautiful blossom?
Secondly I trust that my urge to find a way to make peace with the anger I hold will bring exactly the solution that I need straight to me.
Finally I do not let this problem or any others which I encounter take up too much of my time! When the time is right the solution will come and for the rest of the time I shall focus on that which fills my heart with gladness! I have spent enough of my life allowing problems to take up too much of my time, before I was able to choose my thoughts difficulties would consume my attention like hungry wolves and I was frequently miserable turning them over and over again in my mind to no avail. Now I know that there is a time and a place for dealing with problems, they need not mar my everyday life or stem the beauty of my world.
Today I am Thankful for all the opportunities I have to grow
I am Thankful for the beauty which is to come when I have healed my anger
I am Thankful for walking in the fields bare foot
I am Thankful for the feel of mud between my toes
I am Thankful for invitations to sit by a fire in a cave
I am Thankful for new horizons
I am Thankful for sunbeams through water
I am Thankful for the sound of laughter coming from peoples houses as I walk past
I am Thankful for passion
I am Thankful for love
love Klara.
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